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bird song
04:07
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Fear is my only motive
Sickly birds inside my stomach
In need of comfort, cold and lonely
Getting troubled as I fall asleep
Closed blinds in the morning
It's so easy to indulge in
A mindless cycle, so exhausting
Get the window open, hear them sing
Over and under and over again
Over and under I'm so overwhelmed
Over and under and over again
Over and under get over
There is too much of you (too much of you)
For just one small me (one small me)
There is too much of your noise
For me to feel at peace
Looks like I slept in again
Defeat seems like it's really close again
I take some time to think things through and then
I grieve all of the hours I’ve wasted
Won’t they just turn their eyes away
I don’t feel like trying too hard today
I’ll stay at home
Watch it later on my own
Fill the empty wall
‘til tomorrow when I do it all
Over again
Over and under I'm so overwhelmed
Over and under and over again
Over and under get over
There is too much of you (too much of you)
For just one small me (one small me)
There is too much of your noise
For me to feel at peace
There is too much of you
For just one small me
There is too much of your noise
For me to feel at peace
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2. |
lobby couch
03:44
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Euphoria of possibilities
An irreplaceable feeling
Replaced by a dying urge to be next to you
I’m getting stuck under the ceiling
Who broke into my private symphony
Who left me weak and unstable
Who sits behind the controls for my empathy
Who decides I stay here and tell myself these fables
You better know that excitement never went away
You bet I know all your stories but mine are not the same
I should have guessed that you also wanted us to fit
But it's just not that simple, is it
I close my eyes and imagine what we could have been
But then i realize there’s no ending where we both win
This road always gets me stuck in one place
At least it gets easier when I sink in your embrace
Too late for you, too early for a second chance
Broken record, broken spirit
I might just never let go of you
I got this one thing I think that you should hear it
You better know that excitement never went away
You bet I know all your stories but mine are not the same
I should have guessed that you also wanted us to fit
But it's just not that simple, is it
I close my eyes and imagine what we could have been
But then i realize there’s no ending where we both win
This road always gets me stuck in one place
At least it gets easier when I sink in your embrace
Hold my hand and mean it
At least just for a minute
Close your eyes and feel it
There’s no pain when you’re near it
Hold my hand and mean it
At least just for a minute
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3. |
unbothered
04:46
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I want all the cliché teenage romance
And all the kitschy movie endings
I want a full-length motion picture
Of all the moments I've missed out on
I wanna take an endless bus ride
Listening to some cathartic post rock
Imagining how it would look to
See the world through your eyes
It's another place
That I've never seen
Oh, I wanna go back a couple springs
To change everything
To make me feel unbothered like I can do anything
I couldn't picture myself beside you
And now I’m chasing the ghosts of high school
And I think I should say goodbye to
This bitter taste I get, but for now I’ll gladly wallow in regret
Living in a state of perpetual sleep
Hoping to find you
Somewhere in my dreams
You'd change everything
I'm getting closer and closer and as I touch you my phone rings
(I want all the cliché teenage romance
And all the kitschy movie endings
I want a detailed photo album
Of all the moments I’ve missed out on)
I couldn't picture myself beside you
And now I’m chasing the ghosts of high school
And I think I should say goodbye to
This bitter taste I get, but for now I’ll gladly wallow in regret
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4. |
bad TV
04:03
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The state of power and pleasure, I get it less and less
The storyline is crumbling, my writing is a mess
Taking notes for an episode that's perfect just for me
I need a little bit extra to satisfy my needs
Going over cast members I'd like to tell goodbye
In between the sessions of dramatizing my own life
How many people watch me, I think I lose that fight
How many fucking takes does it take to act it right
Give me a few more episodes, I'll try to work it out
I need another season
My show stars
A soft and nervous layabout
Who cannot turn his life around
And he looks just like me
But it seems like bad TV
I know exactly what to say but just don’t know how to say it
I get excited when I'm talking to you, pause and play it
Tell me what to think and it’s gonna be okay
Be the writer of my show, take my weight away
Delivering lines with no conviction
No tale to be told, what a sad depiction
There’s nothing to work with so resort to fiction
I’m getting away
Running out of interest and not getting any back
We might have to cancel
My show stars
A soft and nervous layabout
who cannot turn his life around
And he looks just like me
Sometimes I wanna put my head through the fucking screen
Oh, he looked just like me
Just like me, just like me
My head is on the screen
Yeah he looked just like me
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5. |
nisam
03:00
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Kao da ni nisam ovdje
Kao da ni nisam ovdje
Kao da ni nisam ovdje
Kao da ni nisam ovdje
Bez mene ne bi bilo razlike
Kao da ni nisam ovdje
Bez mene ne bi bilo razlike
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6. |
wasted
02:07
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Wasting time
I’m just wasting time
Give me a thread to connect on
Please convince me It's fine
Shut down and overreacting
Until the day that we die
Wasted time
All this wasted time
I’m not here, I’m not above you
Can’t avoid what's coming towards you
Change your name but it still haunts you
Change your home but you still belong to
Nowhere near, I’m not above you
Can’t avoid what's coming towards you
(Can’t avoid what's coming towards you)
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7. |
angels
07:03
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I'm getting better at getting out of bed
But some old bullshit still crosses through my head
So no difference is being made today
A single second could take me days to fix
Adjust the slider, no balance in the mix
Consumed by urges I cannot comprehend
I need an angel to counter my mistakes
A saint to save the day
Just say the words and I’ll be on my way
You make it comfortable but I cannot stay
Getting closer but never all the way
I’m getting tired of getting tired
Of no incentive, no desire
So put my feet up to the flame
I hate the mirror, my head not clearer
I hate the joy of when I see her
The years go by, it’s such a shame
You make it comfortable but i cannot stay
Getting closer but never all the way
Here is familiar but I can’t stay
I’m paralysed only by existing
I'm terrified of it dissapearing
I'm getting tired of how I'm feeling
I’ve grown to like you but now I’m leaving
Nothing ever happens
Because I wanted it to
So please excuse the passiveness
I’m not tryna be rude
Your words just fly by my ears
Sacred thoughts so unclear
Driving me to the point I disappear
Angels won't save me now
No holy guardian can help
I’m all alone, embraced by myself
And no being decides my fate
I’m paralysed only by existing
I'm terrified of it dissapearing
I'm getting tired of how I'm feeling
I’ve grown to like you but now I’m leaving
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metro
01:38
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9. |
after me
02:33
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Is there a right thing to do
Hold on baby (yeah)
There’ll be time I promise
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10. |
hours in the dark
05:41
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So here we are again
The same conversation for the fifth time
All your reasons still hold up
And I might try to change your mind again
Look at the time and then say I love you
But that never worked
So, here we are again
The silence is so loud it hurts my ears
A pain only your voice could relieve
Turn around and
Stop for a minute
To admire all the things I never did
Your pictures melt me
It takes so little to spend all night
Drowning in a pool of regret
What do I need to be enough
Didn’t stop for you, it’s on my mind for the rest of the year
Well I guess I can’t be what I want all the time
I have trouble falling asleep again
I'm at the mercy of my own thoughts and conclusions
The countless what ifs
And I might say I've gotten over it
Lose control a bit and just kiss you
But it wouldn't change a thing
I still remember all the good things about falling in love
But I’m set for rotting away, until I tear them to shreds
Until I reach in and claw it out from the depths of my mind
Until that last little piece of hope forever dies
It's not you, it's what I wanted you to be like
How I wanted it to feel like
Hours in the dark and try to sleep
Wake me up from fantasy
Feeling sick I'll have seat
Feel so empty I can’t eat
Try and talk but I can’t speak
Try to look but I can’t see
Getting drunk to end the day
Piss the garbage out of me
Still care what you have to say
Hours in the dark and try to scream
It’s not about you anymore
I am only chasing a feeling
They hate whatever you do, so just do it
it's permanent but I can still go through it
When I go over it again
I just sit there and watch you leave but it's fine
Yeah I guess I can’t be what I want all the time
Well I guess I can't be what I want all the time
Yeah I guess I can't be what I want all the time
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11. |
less and more
03:48
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Dreams are just that for a reason, you'd only do as you please
I hate watching you speak, the way you flow with such ease
My frequencies are way too quiet in this room
No one really wants to find out, it’s easier just to assume
The view from my window never felt so small
I’ve got nothing to feel bad about, it makes me sad all the more
Now its 5 am I'm still awake,
I keep switching up this song
It just goes off and on
Years go by, It’s such a shame
My sleeping patterns stay the same
In my head it sounds insane
Comfort in discomfort, now it feels like fate
Still dreading the day I close my eyes for good
I’m not sure what awaits me but I’d avoid it if I could
Still adjusting to my weaknesses and advice from my good friend
You can't be quiet forever, it's gonna kill you in the end
I know it doesn’t seem like it but there’s layers to peel
Haven't you figured it out yet, I can't act how i feel
Now its 5 pm I'm still in bed
and there's nothing to get up for
I want both less and more
Years go by, It’s such a shame
My living patterns stay the same
In my head it sounds insane
Comfort in despair, I guess it's just my fate
Days go by as the sun goes down
Trying to feel something when it’s not around
Another chance to fix it, another night to end
Maybe tomorrow's different, I know I'll try again
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