So here we are again
The same conversation for the fifth time
All your reasons still hold up

And I might try to change your mind again
Look at the time and then say I love you
But that never worked

So, here we are again
The silence is so loud it hurts my ears
A pain only your voice could relieve

Turn around and
Stop for a minute
To admire all the things I never did

Your pictures melt me
It takes so little to spend all night
Drowning in a pool of regret
What do I need to be enough
Didn’t stop for you, it’s on my mind for the rest of the year
Well I guess I can’t be what I want all the time

I have trouble falling asleep again
I'm at the mercy of my own thoughts and conclusions
The countless what ifs

And I might say I've gotten over it
Lose control a bit and just kiss you
But it wouldn't change a thing

I still remember all the good things about falling in love
But I’m set for rotting away, until I tear them to shreds

Until I reach in and claw it out from the depths of my mind
Until that last little piece of hope forever dies

It's not you, it's what I wanted you to be like
How I wanted it to feel like
Hours in the dark and try to sleep
Wake me up from fantasy
Feeling sick I'll have seat
Feel so empty I can’t eat
Try and talk but I can’t speak
Try to look but I can’t see
Getting drunk to end the day
Piss the garbage out of me
Still care what you have to say
Hours in the dark and try to scream

It’s not about you anymore
I am only chasing a feeling
They hate whatever you do, so just do it
it's permanent but I can still go through it

When I go over it again
I just sit there and watch you leave but it's fine
Yeah I guess I can’t be what I want all the time
Well I guess I can't be what I want all the time
Yeah I guess I can't be what I want all the time